BLTN_002

Title: Snow Globe Part I

Year: 2020

Medium: Graphite, Found Watercolor, 300gsm BFK paper

Size: 5x7”

Note: My first time exploring painting using the principles I set for myself while working on my digital comics. A snapshot of internal seasons. The ride of emotion that can come from one event. The confusion that it starts with, and the clarity it might result in.

BLTN_003

Title: Snow Globe Part II

Year: 2020

Medium: Graphite, Found Watercolor, 300gsm BFK paper

Size: 5x7”

Note: My first time exploring painting using the principles I set for myself while working on my digital comics. A snapshot of internal seasons. The ride of emotion that can come from one event. The confusion that it starts with, and the clarity it might result in.

BLTN_004

Title: Snow Globe Part III

Year: 2020

Medium: Graphite, Found Watercolor, 300gsm BFK paper

Size: 5x7”

Note: My first time exploring painting using the principles I set for myself while working on my digital comics. A snapshot of internal seasons. The ride of emotion that can come from one event. The confusion that it starts with, and the clarity it might result in.

BLTN_005

Title: Round Trip

Year: 2020

Medium: Found Watercolor, 300gsm BFK paper

Size: 5x7”

Note: Recurring dreams of near-death trauma at times send me into a sense of altered reality for days on end. Convinced everything I see, feel, do is an illusion on a greater timeline. Painted this a few days into a week long episode, full of fear, trying my best to ride out the storm. The original painting now sits with someone I consider one of my biggest inspirations in processing trauma through art. Thank you, love you.

BLTN_006

Title: Everything At Once Part I

Year: 2020

Medium: Found Watercolor, 300gsm BFK paper

Size: 5x7”

Note: Sun’s going down and it will be longer than we think before it’s up again.

BLTN_007

Title: Everything At Once Part II

Year: 2020

Medium: Found Watercolor, 300gsm BFK paper

Size: 5x7”

Note: What a good day we had.

BLTN_008

Title: Everything At Once Part III

Year: 2020

Medium: Found Watercolor, 300gsm BFK paper

Size: 5x7”

Note: We have some time until the sun is up again. But for now I’m okay right here, feeling everything at once

BLTN_009

Title: (LOSS) Across Three Winters

Year: 2017-2020

Medium: Staedtler Lumocolor marker, sprayed Pigment dye, 300gsm BFK paper

Size: 30x44”

Note: Started in February 2017 a few weeks after moving to Portland, and finished May 2020, 75 days into the stay-at-home order. A giant sheet of paper that I would go to and doodle on when I was feeling too overwhelmed with thought and needed somewhere to put my frantic energy. Hundreds of moments told in tiny scribbles.

BLTN_012

Title: Power // Forgiveness (LOSS)

Year: 2019

Medium: Bingo marker, 300gsm BFK paper

Size: 30x44”

Note: Between gigs, feeling the panic and stress of always needing to produce when I don’t have work on my plate, but too frozen from the panic to do anything I consider productive. Fighting the guilt of “not doing enough.” The power struggle of shame and compassion. An entry into the (LOSS) series, exploring ways to use fast-paced scribbles to exert anxious energy.

BLTN_013

Title: The Fog

Year: 2019

Medium: Pen & Notebook paper

Size: 1x3”

Note: I tried to get on the bus again today. I kept feeling the electric-like shocks every time I got close to the door. The panic hits, the crying starts. Sit back down, breathe, try again. Don’t think and get over the hump. I can’t go, I’m frozen. It’s all spinning too fast and I’m stuck here. I tried to get on the bus again today. I thought I was going to make it this time.

BLTN_015

Title: Smoke Em If You Got Em

Year: 2018

Medium: Staedtler Lumocolor marker, Computer paper

Size: 8.5x11”

Note: Drawing / pattern that was originally used on my 2018 rolling paper business cards. Those papers helped start a hundred conversations and dozens of new friends. Smoke em if you got em.

BLTN_017

Title: Trapped In A Maze

Year: 2018

Medium: Scratchboard

Size: 3x3”

Note: Sitting in the basement, stuck again. The loop continues, but where does it stop?

BLTN_019

Title: What Do You See

Year: 2017

Medium: Watercolor, Strathmore watercolor paper, coffee, pen

Size: 8x10”

Note: Before anyone knew who Stubby Duckworth was, I was sitting in a basement experimenting with hand illustration styles signed as SD with no intention of them ever being connected back to me. Some paint splashes and coffee stains, and pen strokes trying to find comfort in drawing the first thing my mind can find. Fighting off the guilt of “not doing enough.” The power struggle of shame and compassion. An entry into the (LOSS) series, exploring ways to use fast-paced scribbles to exert anxious energy.

BLTN_022

Title: Fear of Lightning

Year: 2017

Medium: Construction Paper

Size: 8x10”

Note: Construction paper collage. It’s night time and I can hear the thunder rolling. Is it by chance, or did I get myself here? If I think of lightning too much I will be struck by lightning.

BLTN_023

Title: Struck by Lightning

Year: 2017

Medium: Construction Paper

Size: 8x10”

Note: Construction paper collage. I thought too much and I’ve been struck by lightning. Clouds continue to roll in and not much is visible anymore.

BLTN_025

Title: Trust the Lightning

Year: 2017

Medium: Construction Paper

Size: 3x3”

Note: Construction paper collage. I can see the dark at the end of the tunnel. I’m safe and I can rest. Another day struck by lightning and I’m still here. Another day struck by lightning and we’ll do it again.

BLTN_027

Title: There Was A Time Where It Was All I Knew

Year: 2017

Medium: Construction paper, magazine scraps

Size: 8x10”

Note: I can’t stop crying this morning, but it has been a while. I can’t stop crying this morning, but this used to be every day. I can’t stop crying this morning, but it has been a while. I can’t stop crying this morning, but there was a time where it was all I knew.

BLTN_028

Title: Flowers Grow Everywhere

Year: 2017

Medium: Linocut print on construction paper

Size: 8x10”

Note: A reality abstracted to all to those who haven’t lived it. It’s hard to find focus.

BLTN_032

Title: (LOSS) I

Year: 2017

Medium: Pen, Marker, Paper

Size: 8.5x11”

Note: Initially intended for a friend's zine around the theme of Loss. My first exploration with using my frantic scribbles as a way to release anxious energy. Two layers, showing the reality and the desire. Part 1 of 3.

BLTN_033

Title: (LOSS) II

Year: 2017

Medium: Pen, Marker, Paper

Size: 8.5x11”

Note: Initially intended for a friends zine around the theme of Loss. My first exploration with using my frantic scribbles as a way to release anxious energy. Two layers, showing the reality and the desire. Part 2 of 3.

BLTN_034

Title: (LOSS) III

Year: 2017

Medium: Pen, Marker, Paper

Size: 8.5x11”

Note: Initially intended for a friends zine around the theme of Loss. My first exploration into using my frantic scribbles as a way to release anxious energy. Two layers, showing the reality and the desire. Part 3 of 3.

BLTN_035

Title: Ten Days In The Desert

Year: 2016

Medium: Pen, Paper, Photograph

Size: 5x7?

Note: The first Stubby Duckworth piece before I knew I wanted to even use it as an alias. Before the illustration I had the account for posting nonsense photos. We were moving from Long Island to PDX, camping in our car and freelancing. We spent about a week in Joshua Tree, mostly sleeping on public land just outside the park, but we did land a few nights in a Joshua Tree National Park campsite. One day we met this older local outside of a general store named Wayne. Dude chatted us up forever, telling us how to survive the wilderness, where the camp best spots are, everywhere he’s been. But his favorite was camping up in the Valley of Fire. He swore that if we were only going to one more spot on the trip, that was the place. Our last day before leaving town we came across the posting board at the entrance of the campsite where people left each other notes of meeting places and times since cell service in the area was spotty. Left a little tribute to Wayne on the way out. Unfortunately we never made it to the Valley of Fire but I think about him and his stories constantly.

BLTN_036

Title: Mind Went Blank

Year: 2018

Medium: Pen, Paper

Size: 8.5x11”

Note: Oftentimes when the panic gets to be too much, it all just turns off. Minutes, hours, days feeling stuck in slow motion unable to talk, walk, or function like normal. It’s hard to think when my mind goes blank.

BLTN_040

Title: Visions of Light Part I

Year: 2020

Medium: Found Watercolor, 300gsm BFK paper

Size: 5x7”

Note: The exit is right there. But the puzzle prevents me from reaching it.

BLTN_041

Title: Visions of Light Part II

Year: 2020

Medium: Found Watercolor, 300gsm BFK paper

Size: 5x7”

Note: The harder I focus the more I see a pattern. The more I see the pattern, the stronger the lines get.

BLTN_042

Title: Visions of Light Part III

Year: 2020

Medium: Found Watercolor, 300gsm BFK paper

Size: 5x7”

Note: Every day. Roll of the dice. Stuck inside, or smelling flowers somewhere nice.

BLTN_043

Title: Knowing Part I

Year: 2019

Medium: Pen, paper, digital alterations

Size: 8.5x11”

Note: A dream so real that when you wake up you’re convinced you’re not. I died that day and I’ll never forget. I know it happened, so where am I now? Accepting the light, trusting the peace.

BLTN_044

Title: Knowing Part II

Year: 2019

Medium: Pen, paper, digital alterations

Size: 8.5x11”

Note: Remembering. Remembering. Remembering. Trusting the peace.

BLTN_047

Title: The Catch (Day)

Year: 2012

Medium: Intaglio copper etching

Size: 5x7”

Note: 2006 NLCS. A moment frozen. Given to me in a time where I needed an escape.

BLTN_048

Title: The Catch (Night)

Year: 2012

Medium: Intaglio copper etching

Size: 5x7”

Note: 2006 NLCS. A moment frozen. Given to me in a time where I needed an escape.

BLTN_049

Title: Dream State (Summer)

Year: 2020

Medium: Acrylic, paper

Size: 8x10”

Note: Where do you go when you dream? Where do you go when you’re awake? It all blurs together. It’s up to you.

BLTN_050

Title: Dream State (Winter)

Year: 2020

Medium: Acrylic, paper

Size: 8x10”

Note: It’s getting cold and the lines are starting to blur.

BLTN_052

Title: Waste I

Year: 2020

Medium: Watercolor, bath tissue

Size: 8x10”

Note: We tend to focus too much on the finished piece and not the work that it took to get there. The process is just as beautiful as the end result.

BLTN_053

Title: Waste II

Year: 2020

Medium: Watercolor, bath tissue

Size: 8x10”

Note: We tend to focus too much on the finished piece and not the work that it took to get there. The process is just as beautiful as the end result. What a fun ride we’ve had.